Keeping busy

I've got to keep myself busy. I move between being active and involved, and then being bored and withdrawn. I find that I'm externally driven and I've got to put myself into situations where someone else pushes me. I have to make the decision to put myself into the situation, but once there I like someone else to make demands of me. I seem to respond to this. So I'm probably going to take another course. Probably another running course or maybe a drafting course, or a welding course. I dunno, but I gotta do something. I need to keep myself busy.